Anything & Everything

I hate it when you walk in a room and people stare.And you think booger,is my hair sticking up,is there something on my face?No.then what is it?Why do people insist on profiling someone they don't even know.People look you up and down.Some even determine they're better than you.Without even having a conversation.Girls give you that look and make that sound I call it the "Ghetto Grunt",that hmm who the fuck is she/him.Guys don't really pay attention unless there's a pretty girl in front of them.It's So annoying .

So I'm in the car and my moms going on one of her bitchy rampages about how I isolate myself in my room.She thinks I need to spend more time with this chaotic family.(Mind you that all this is going on in the car so any chance of me pretending I didn't hear her went out the window).She said that we don't talk like we used to,and then some other shit.So finally I just told her "Why don't you leave me alone and go find some friends".She shut up for like two seconds and started talking about having friends.So I told her "Then why don't you make plans with them instead of forcing your fifteen year old daughter to hang out with you."

I'm a little confused as to what triggered my decisions to move on and abort certain "missions" in my mess I call a life.Maybe it was when I realized that all the work I put in to this guy erased itself as soon as he clicked the log in button on Myspace.Or the fact that no matter what I did or said that our so called relationship would never be legit.Or was it was when I finally met someone who actually calls me just to talk instead of when he wants something and tells me i'm pretty even when I don't feel like I am.Instead of digging through the "Laughs and Cries" to find the exuberance in a so-called bond I find myself genuinely happy .Which makes it worth all the crap I've been through.OhSoWonderful Relations

Surprisingely today was pretty good based on the fact that it was spent with my ridiculous family .First we went to Michael's (the art store) to go look at absolutely nothing .The only thing my mom got was gum.Come on mom,you could've went to Wawa's for that.Then we got in the car just so my mom could say "Kiani I want some more gum go back in and get me some." What the fuck?So I did and the guy looked at me like I was retarded.Thanks Mom....So much.You really boosted my self esteem.Anyway,we went to Chiles and had to wait an hour just so my retarded sisters could say" i'm not hungry anymore" .Oh my goodness they drive me crazy.That's pretty much it .Bye for now.