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So once again I'm deemed worthless.Why can't I find someone that loves me and wants me forever .Instead of when it's convenient .Left alone .Nobody cares.I'm such an idiot to think that I finally found someone.Meaningless.My life is meaningless and I'm sick of everything life has to offer.Whenever it's even semi good it never last.My chest is on fire and it feels like I'm suffocating ,tightening its grip until my heart is nothing but dust.The tears are spilling and soaking my blanket.I thought I was right ,that he was my one and only ,that we'd last forever ( I genuinely thought that),that we were meant for each other,that I would never have to give him up.All the planning ,and in his head he probably just laughed at how gullible I was.So foolish to think anyone would want me .Fed into the lies ,so I guess I deserved it.I love you Kiani.You're an amazing girl.You deserve everything.You're beautiful, Kiani.I missed you ,Kiani.I'm in love with you.You're one of my best friends.
The one time I give someone a peak as to what's inside I get taken advantage of.What's wrong with me?No idea what I'm going to do .

Why live a life
That's painted with pity and sadness and strife
Why dream a dream
That's tainted with trouble and less than it seems
Why bother bothering
Just for a poem or another sad song to sing
Why live a lie
Why live a lie
-Emilie Autumn-

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