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Coming clean is the only way to get the full story . I think it's hilarious actually. I'm not heartless, but I refuse to feel bad for what went on in the free zone. If I can look past you getting it on with your fat baboon in that gahdamn hiatus of 4 gahdamn months then you should be able to fall in place, strap that erection on and keep the past in the past. I didn't lie no one asked. I don't believe in cheating, but if I'm single and you wanna act single I'm not going to sit around like some simpleton....I like sex too much. I'm allowed to be close to anyone of the opposite sex, but no that doesn't mean I'm boning them . He was there to talk to, going through a bad break up too . When you were too busy ignoring me to go lollygag with your precious seed and her. So I don't wanna hear that bullshit.
I'm not perfect, but to be accused of something that serious is insulting and it made me vomit(literally) to think that we almost ended on some half ass shit boils my blood and gives me those impulsive thoughts that I know I'd regret later.What the fuck do I have to do to show my goddamn sincerity ? That's the question I shouldn't have to answer.
I don't even look over your shoulder anymore cause if you're gonna cheat be my guest I have nothing that keeps me tied to you I can walk scotch free, I chose not to so why would I do something to jeopardize what I've invested blood sweat and tears in (no pun intended) ? What sense does that make? Nada.


Listening to this song always makes me think of people that ask me "What if" like it's a fucking game show. Even people that only know me Via Facebook do it which is even more annoying. That situation.It's like you don't really care what's going on or how it affects anyone , you just like to have your nose in a little bit of everything. If I go around asking myself what if the saga would never end and the regression would slowly begin... Which I refuse to let happen. I've come too far to let the wall tumble back down. I will never again lose control, no one and nothing is worth it at the moment. Instead of what if , I focus on what I feel at every point of the day . Sometimes I find myself tensing up at the first sight of being uncomfortable. I don't know if people notice ( I hope not I don't wanna be weird) . I can't help it I try to keep the smile or at least an unreadable face .Hmm I thought it would be longer but my mind seems to be at ease again so I guess I'll stop.

So remember knowledge is power and not knowing is just half the battle.

It's finally here and I don't know what to think..I just hope that everything remains where it's at. 2012 is my year to be happy. It's the year I won't tolerate anything less from anyone. You wanna be along for the ride then you better buckle up cause I have plans for this year and all of you can fall in line or not. Either way I'm gone.

Knowledge is power and not knowing is just half the battle.


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